Sorry for such a prolonged absence, yes its been a busy week and I promise to update you on that shortly (probably in a separate post), but to be honest that’s not the cause. A friend of mine recently admitted that when she heard I had a blog she tracked it down and started reading it. And this freaked me out, a lot, every time I went to write a post this week I just encountered a mental block because I thought she’d be reading it. Now this probably says a lot about me, I’m not overly good at being very open, I like to compartmentalise and this extends to friendships (except poor Emma who gets to know pretty much all of it, she’s such a lucky girl) you know with different friendships for different things. I’m trying to be more open, but progress is slow. Which means when this friend confessed she read my blog I freaked out, because I’ve written about lots of stuff on here that I wouldn’t necessarily confide to her about.
Emma (very rightly pointed out) that it’s the internet, not a private diary, people reading it is kina the point of blogging. And she has a point but at the same time it’s different, and it’s like we’re all reading each other diaries, which somehow makes it a little less weird and me feel a little less vulnerable.
After stewing over it for most of the week, I eventually broke down and asked her if she would mind stop reading it. Turns out she’d stopped reading it a while ago because she “couldn’t handle it”. Which is a blessing really, because I've really missed blogging this week, I've missed the interactions and the accountability it offers, and just the whole blogging community in general because just reading the blogs, it isn't the same.
But it made me think, how does every one else handle it when someone you know “IRL” starts reading your blog? Also does anyone else compartmentalise friendships?
Apologies for a less than perky post.