its been a very long time. For a few weeks it was simply stupidity. The kind of stupidity where one writes several posts but forgets to hit publish. Not once. Not twice. But a grand total of 3 times. Opps.
Then things round here got quiet for another reason. As you all know I get tendentious periodically in both hands/wrists. Well I had a bad flare up. Actually bad is a bit of an understatement, it was on a scale which I have never experienced before. The pain was extreme, and seemed to of spread. I cried when I accidentally moved my muscles or if someone touched my hands. I went back to the doctors and was prescribed some pretty powerful pain killers. You know how a lot of pain killers warn you about drowsiness and advise avoiding heavy machinery? Yeah well believe me when I say NO ONE wanted me behind the wheel of a car on them. I took my first lot whilst at work and had to ring my parents to come pick me up. Lesson learnt! It was bad. They also made me feel rotten. Dizzy & drowsy but the worst of it, it didn't matter how much or what I ate, I just couldn't seem to settle my stomach. And OH MY GOODNESS I SLEPT SOOOOO MUCH. So much that yes all CAPS was completely necessary ;p
Despite this I felt so blessed. The patients were all super understanding and kind. They didn't complain that I was soooo slow (I had 2 full hand/wrist braces on) or that I was constantly making mistakes with their appointments due to the pain fog. And my boss and colleagues were amazing, I KNOW they gave me all the easy jobs for those few weeks.
As well as giving me some super strong pain killers she ordered some blood tests as she was concerned it was actually Rheumatoid arthritis. Fortunately the blood tests came back negative, HUGE relief. So it was a case of being very careful and a lot of prayer. Like a lot, a lot. People I've never even spoken to at church were praying for me, which was very humbling and over-whelming.
Well prayer works, because I'm not pain free. And I can do push ups (just to clarify, I don't, but I could). That might not seem like a big deal, but for about 5 years I haven't been able to support my own body weight without one or both wrists giving way and then being in pain for days, so to me its a massive thing.
There's more to tell (much nicer reasons for my absence). But as this is already an awful lot of words for one post!
So thanks to all of you who have not only stuck around despite me being AWOL but who have waded through all that text to reach the end, kudos!